Happy?

Whenever you go and ask someone how to become happy, they might told you that one of the important things is never care how people think of you, just be yourself. Yes, I do agree with that. BUT sometimes I do not think so.


Let's say, I'm a very very fat girl. Although I know that whatever I wear, people will not think that it's nice, but I still love wearing jeans. When I go out, some people might not say anything but at the same time, some people love to talk/gossip. Especially guys. They love to make fun of other people and seldom think of people's feeling. No? Okla, not really all the guys but some.

What I am trying to say is, in this world..to be a happy person is not really easy. You need to deal with a lot of things. Physical look can be important. If you are hot/sexy, people will prefer to near you. If opposite, of course things will become opposite too. If you do not know how to wear in a proper/nicer way, people will feel that so 'xia sui' to walk beside you. So who's fault? That person who do not know about fashion should have learn more about fashion? Or the person who feels 'xia sui' to walk beside should just accept it?

What do you think? You think people should wear what they like or they should wear something that is suitable for them?

Oh my..

Please tell me that you love me. I just went to see doctor.

The doctor told me that I've Atopic Eczema.

I need to think what else I haven't do.


Hehe. It's not a serious sickness la. Atopic eczema is an inflammation of the skin which tends to flare-up from time to time. It usually starts in early childhood. There is no 'cure', but treatment can usually control or ease symptoms. Emollients (moisturisers) and steroid creams or ointments are the common treatments. About 2 in 3 children with eczema 'grow out of it' by their mid teens.

My dad brought me to Kulim, Arun. They said that the doctor there is good and the medicine is very effective. I can see a lot of people waiting for their turn when I was there. Anyway, if you wonder how I got this, you should ask my dad. Genetic factors play a part. :p In case you are reading this and then the next day when you see me you run away like a wind, I'm just gonna let you know that it is not contagious. So no need to worry.

Doctor advised me not to eat nuts and eggs. I'm gonna cry. I love peanuts! There are some other reasons that can be a trigger. Don't care dee. :p I got plenty of medicines to eat and also to apply on my skin. Hope fully my eyes and lips are gonna be fine soon. I hate when people keep staring or asking me about it.

One more thing, I also kena 1 injection near my waist. Because I lack of vitamin. I guess. When the doctor told me that I need to get 1 injection, I straight away look at my dad and ask him, :" What?! I need to get injection wan ahhh??" Luckily it was not really painful. Maybe I should feel lucky that I do not have to get that injection on my hips.

There's more information about this Eczema and also here.

Annoyed

T : Hey! Wow, what did you ate until become this size? (obviously not the positive one)

Me : Erm, *feeling annoyed* Dunno. *walks away*

T : So, how are you getting on?

Me : NOT GOOD.

ARGH. Today, someone told me that I'm getting fat. Thanks for being so honest and now I'm blaming myself for eating a lot. *eating snacks while blogging*

Oh great. I wish I can eat as much as I can while still looking slim. I told myself that I'm gonna exercise to keep fit. It didn't work because of my laziness. Is it possible for me to get slim? Hmm. Maybe the fastest way to get slim is to cut off my fat! If I'm feeling bad for getting fat, I wonder how those really fat people feels. Must be very..sad. Or still sad. Anyway, no offense to those not-so-slim people.

I just hate the feeling of being 'huge'. There are a lot of disadvantages of being fat. Not able to wear nice clothes. Cannot wear bikini. Even if I want to wear it, I guess some people will vomit. If there's a small space to get through, I won't be able to do so. See! With all these disadvantages, I should really really really stop eating so much and start to exercise a bit. Yah. That will do. I guess. Some people might think that we should just love the way we are. NO! That's not the way I am, I was quite slim during the old days? Maybe before form 3? Haha.
I will try to change something that I can. I must not buy any junk food. Must not eat. Must controllll.....

Byul (OST 200 Pounds Beauty) - Kim Ah Joong

For those who didn't watch 200 pounds beauty, you should have go and watch it! It's very nice to watch. I've watched it for 3 times. It is quite funny and also got the touching moment. I think that Kim Ah Joong is very talented and pretty girl. Among all the songs in the movies, I love 'Byul (star)' the most. It's quite meaningful.

This is the original singer of Byul (Star), Youme.

This is from Kim Ah Joong's version





Lyrics & Translation:

param gyeoli changeul heundeulgo
nae gimalhan jakeun nawei pan weouro
areumduphge byulbijdeureul
kadeul chaewojuneyo
malhi aphahajimah
nalkkok aneunchae dadokyojumyeo
jakjara weouro haejuneyo
keodji mothalmankkeum himekyeowon aphawado
nunmuli apeul karyeowado
kajjimothal nae sarang aphedo nan useullaeyo
jamshimado kyeote haengboghattdeon giogdeureul
kashime kanjig halkeyo
du nune suno najin jeobyuldeul
cheoreom yeongwonhi

Translation of Youme’s version:

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

New Header

Hehe. I'm so happy.

I know that my header looks simple, but still I love it! I do it myself geh. Before this de header was made by DragonHead. Once again, thank you. Then recently one of my assignment I need to learn how to use photoshop, so I went to download the software and search for the website, how to use photoshop mainly for newbies like me.

DragonHead's work

Hehe. My new header nice or not? If not nice also let me know ler. It feels so good when you do something and able to see the results. Happy to learn new things. Weeeee.

Well, at least I know something. In this world, never depends on someone too much and try to be independent. Because if you don't, you will be one step behind and end up learn nothing. You can ask and try it yourself. Some people might look down on you if you do not know how to do this and that. If you do not learn, you will be only giving yourself a chance not to improve.

I sleep with...

AHA!




Do you have someone sleeping beside you every night? Maybe someone to hug or someone just sitting beside you? Oh well, I do. I got 2! Erm, maybe you will think that I'm childish, but I'm okay with it. Anyway, I think I can still find any 5 guys who sleeps with their bolster. *grins* Oh ya, did I mentioned that it is not human? Later got people thinks that everyone I go and find 2 guys to sleep with me. :/

Cute pandaaa

Er, cute doggie? or alien? :p

I think almost every night I will be hugging that panda, I'm sorry, doggie. Not that I do not like you, just that the panda will be nicer to hug. :) The only part that is nice to hug is your big big head. Don't worry, I will be still loving you. :3 I got 1 short yellow bolster, sometimes I will use it as pillow. I don't really like to sleep with a low pillow, so have to use the bolster as a pillow. Is there anyone who wanna share with me who/what they sleep with?

UK? Australia? US?

Hmm..I thought I will be further my studies to UK. No other options.

But I do not know about this. The twins finally made their decision that they are going to US for degree. After our diploma. If I'm going to UK, I will have to finish my advanced diploma 2 years in KL. Then only I'll be taking degree in UK for 3 months. Opps. I think I'm kinda confused.

If going to UK,
:after my diploma:
- 1 and 1/2 years in KL (RM7k) [only for my course fees]
- 3 months in UK (RM30k) [all included]
- If staying in KL for 2 months I might need to spend a few k's or maybe near to 10k for the rental, food, books, and etc.


If going to US,
:after my diploma:
- 12 months (RM110k) [all included]
Look at the price! I guess it's quite impossible.

If going to Australia,
:after my diploma:
- 12 months (RM100k) [all included]
Gosh.w

My meaning of all included means = mmmtbt
[m]akan [m]inum [m]ain [t]inggal [b]elajar [t]erbang

Hmm, think it over again..I think going to KL will be a better choice. First of all, I'm not a top student. Second of all, I'm not rich. Oh okay, I should said, I'm not from a wealthy family. There are a lot of things to think actually. But come to think of it, why should I be thinking of it? I'm lucky enough if my parents can effort to let me go UK. Yup, that's it.

:)

Still remember the contest that I took part, Chipster Contest?

Haha. Finally got results liao.

I got the 1st prize!!!

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Just kidding. I where got that lucky. Anyway, I wanna say thank you to all of you who helped me to vote. Even if you didn't vote, but if you got wish me luck I also want to say thank you! :3


I was quite disappointed as I did not get what I desired. Bah. My Nokia N95..T.T

BUT! I got the consolation prize. The Exclusive Chipsters Premiums. Do not ask me what's that. Because obviously I do not know. Wee. I'm still happy about it. At least better than nothing ma..

*I'm still thinking about the Nokia N95*

Will you continue?

Well, when you face with a problem and you keep on try to find a solution..but still you couldn't solve it. What should you do?

- Just leave it there
- Or you will still continue to find a good solution

I'm not sure if everyone heard about this before, but I'm gonna tell a story of an elephant.

When the elephant was still young, a person tied its leg on a big tree. (of course inside the photo is not a big tree) That elephant tried to free itself but it ends up failed. After a while, the elephant gave up. Oh well, now that elephant is big enough to free itself. BUT the elephant didn't try anymore. If only the elephant did not gave up and try one more time..It's hard to know about the future, that elephant will never knows that just one more time, and will be able to get freedom.

I think same goes to human beings. We shouldn't gave up when we met with problems right? I wanted to believe that, but will it really happens? Sometimes I just feel so disappointed until I do not feel like continue it anymore. I know that someday..maybe someday I might can get what I want, but everytime I failed to do so, the feeling of disappointment..Never been good. Especially when I couldn't get good explanation from it.

I do not love Saturday anymore

Ya, Saturday gotta be a lovely and peaceful day. Not anymore. Hmph.


Oh well, my lecturer is getting married. Congrats to her. :) But bcos of this, there's a replacement on Saturday! AHhhh..Actually I should have just lied to my parents that Saturday no class and I can go back on Friday. Weirdly, I didn't. Maybe I feel that I should attend the lecture. Since I got nothing to do if I went back earlier. I might staying at home playing games or watching tv shows.

Although this is only week 5, I can start to feel the tension..As I mentioned before, I failed my psychology. Need to resit in this sem and I guess my parents are actually disappointed about that. I hate it when my dad is going to nag me to go study. I know I know, parents always worry about their kid's studies. To tell the truth, I actually purposely always play games at home and hardly study in front of them. Haha. I said I hate my dad to nag me but actually I want them to nag me. I think that's happiness.

I always dare to do something crazy or dangerous. Why? I guess I'm selfish. I want to care about me..although they always care for me, I just like it that way. Hehe. I'm such a bad daughter to them. Anyway, when will my parents let me drive to Penangggggg..I always have the difficulties of going back hometown. I can actually save $$ by driving to Penang.

You see..If I don't drive,
- My bro/sis (stays near USM) from BM fetch me to hostel then go back to their place.
- My bro/sis (stays near USM) from their working place fetch me back to BM.
- If my bro/sis is not free, my parents from BM come to my hostel then fetch me back to BM.
- Sometimes my roommate can fetch me go back BM.

If I drive,
- I drive go.
- I drive back.
(I think per week I only use RM20 of petrol or maybe less.)

Now should I go back this week? I'm not sure how am I going back..*sigh* Tml's lecture better be good.

~ Hello Kitty ~

Weeee.........




What? You think a 19 years old girl cannot talk about hello kitty meh? I went to the Hello Kitty Lantern Festival a few weeks back. I bet daniel want to go, right? :p Er, honestly..I think it was a waste to spend RM13 to watch all those lanterns. :( Maybe something special, but still I would prefer to spend the money to eat or watch movies. Bah, since I already went, no regrets! Anyway, see the photos!

I like the panda one! Cuteeeeee...

Come come, I let you all see a photo..can you guess what is it?

Muahahaha

A dinosaur's private part! Hmm, suddenly I feel like I'm pervert.

Actually I took quite a number of photos..but not gonna show it all here. Later you view half way lag or stuck pulak. After you finish reading this post, you will have to say, HELLO KITTY IS CUTE!

Hola!

Wow, this gotta be the longest moment that I haven't update my blog. But no worrries, I finally decided to come back. Hmm, can't blame on me I guess. You see, the connection was so bad until I got no mood to read people's blog, no mood to update and I only got my mood to watch Claymore and House. Most or maybe all bloggers do face this kind of situation. In a sudden don't feel like blogging or maybe do not know what to blog.

As for me, even if I got things to blog about, I just...face with some problems.
For example : *me trying to type and type, suddenly dc.* I very very the hate this situation. Especially when I need to upload some photos.

Now I do not know what's happening on the blogosphere. Maybe someone's boobs got bigger, or maybe there's something nice to eat or maybe Britney Spears is pregnant again? Oh well..nothing to do with Britney Spears. =)

Hey, I need to know if anyone out there miss me? Please do let me know if you miss me. I'm sure I'll blog more often if you can just drop a msg by telling me that you miss me. Hehehe. I'm greedy. I just want to know if anyone still reading this. Just in case my dad is reading this, nope. You do not have to leave me a msg. :P

ANDDDD I tell you something. CLAYMORE is really a must to watch~ So nice wei. Only got 26 episodes. See..I'm so into it until I put it as my wallpaper.

Haha, now the twins, M&G kena my poison dee. They are going to be busy watching Claymore. Just remember to finish assignment lor. Or else ur group members gonna hunt me down. *grins* I think there might be some ppl forget who am I. Grrr. My fault. Too long din on my msn. Too long din go and shout. Too long din go and kacau ppl. Nvm, you will see/hear me soon!

p/s : About the Chipster Contest, DON'T mention it liao. I'm so disappointed. Because I do not know the results of it. ****